Saturate Me

// October 16 //

I know I have missed the past four days or so of blogging, but the truth is, I really have not made time for it. I let other things become the priority instead. But I guess we all slip into that at some point in our lives don’t we?

It’s a human thing really.

Today, I turn 21. It is my 21st year of being on this Earth that God created. 21 years of breathing, eating, sleeping… It feels like just yesterday my best friend and I were driving after a shopping trip saying how crazy it was that we just turned 16 and could drive ourselves.

The thing is, I never really looked at my birthday as a start of a new year or anything like that. Not like we do New Year’s. I’ve never really thought to myself that I had a goal before I turn the next set of digits and get another year older. But this year I was challenged to look at things differently.

This thought may have come up just because I am reflecting on who I was a year ago. I look back and see how much I have grown- both spiritually and personally. I look at the picture of who celebrated my birthday with me then and compare it to the friends I have plans with tonight- they are all the same. There is something about consistency in relationships despite personal change that really speaks to my heart.

It reminds me of our individual relationships with God.

Even though I am someone completely different then who I was exactly one year ago today, my friends are still the same people and those relationships have deepened.

In scripture we are constantly reminded that Christ is making us like Him in His image. He is working us to complete perfection for when we are to enter the gates of Heaven and see Him face-to-face. But despite our growth and changes, in an constantly changing world, God is always there with us. In fact, we even grow closer to Him. It is such a breath of relief to know that.

I have never set a goal for myself between birthdays, but this year I am going to. It’s not a goal like lose amount of pounds, less Netflix and chill, or stop spending so much money on unnecessary Starbucks. It’s a goal that actually has no end. It’s a lifelong goal, but I am setting in expectation that I will see growth in one year from today.

This next year, I want to grow spiritually. I want to be taken into the throne room with my Jesus.  I want to see HIS face and hear HIS voice. I want to be covered in HIS blood everyday of this next year and to recognize HIM. I want to be a person of peace that has faith in the LORD. I want to be saturated in the Spirit.

It’s not about being a certain amount of spiritual. It’s about becoming closer to Jesus, my Beloved and my Friend. I want to be so close to Him that I don’t miss a thing He has for me. I want to be so immersed in all that He has for me that I stop worrying about my future plans and finances, but give up control and trust in Him.

I want to know Him as the Good Shepherd, the Lord of Hosts, and my Beloved.

Isn’t this something you desire to? Don’t you want to be intimate with the one that created you? Think about it, we have the opportunity to be in unity and relationship with the creator of the entire universe- doesn’t that make you want to just seek HIM?

He is the only King that literally left His throne to die for us. He loved us that much. I want to love like Jesus. I want to be saturated in that love more and more each day.

Psalm 73.23-24 reminds us of Jesus constantly being with us:

Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory.

Friends, family, brothers and sisters in Christ, people on the other side of the world that may be reading this, join me in seeking our Father in Heaven with all that is within me. Let’s be saturated in the Lord together.

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Step Out 

// October  11 & 12 // 

I am aware that I completely missed October 11. To be honest, I did not know what to write about. I sat in the prayer room digging through my thick pool of topics, but nothing intrigued me. In fact, I actually ended up falling asleep. I am going to attempt to incooperate both days into one. 

First, I woke up Wednesday morning at 5:30 am to be at work on time. You can bet your bottom dollar that the first thought that went through my mind was “Lord, please let them send me home early”. Well, God answered that prayer and I got to leave two hours early! It was such a blessing and gave me time to rest from being sick. 

Today, I accomplished a personal goal. A few months ago some friends and I that were brought together with the likemindedness of missions gathered around two small tables at the smallest Starbucks I have ever been to to talk about things we could do to spread missions on our college campus. I had this idea of asking students that had been on a missions trip or had cross-cultural engagement experience to speak to other students and share. 

I didn’t think it would ever happen because our missions club fell through for the semester. But God gave me another outlet- through the cross-cultural engagement office that I work at. When I told my boss, he was all for it. 

I began contacting people, applying for it to be a spiritual-formation opportunity (so students grt credit for being there), and just asking the Lord to guide the evening. Well, tonight it finally happened. 

Now, let me tell you, usually when I am trying to lead something or put on an event of some sort, I get aggravated easily when things don’t go as planned or when people don’t respond. But this time was different. I felt so calm about peaceful about it. When a student told me last minute they couldn’t speak, I quickly prayed and God provided another. 

I wasn’t nervous speaking in front of a small group of people, but I actually enjoyed it. The best part, however, was hearing the students speak about their experiences and how God shaped their hearts and lives from the trips they took. It truly was an incredible experience and I am honored that the Lord allowed me to help plan it. 

That being said, I want to encourage you to step out. Take that leap of faith. Trust the Lord with your dreams. He is BIGGER and MIGHTIER than all of your dreams. Know that if you submit to Him, He will bless you greatly and make your dreams come true. 

When we lean on the Lord and show Him our dependence for Him, He opens doors and uses us in ways we never imagined possible. Three years ago if you asked me, I would never have thought I’d even be capable or adequate to put on an event like this. The Lord can take those insecurities and reign in victory over them! 

Step out my friends! Step out! Just like Peter, we too can walk on water when we fix our eyes on JESUS. We just need to step out! 

“Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. Matthew 14.19

YOLO ✌🏻

// October 10 // 

So I know this one is a day late and I’m probably a dollar short, but hey, we all have those days right? 

Something that spoke to me yesterday is this concept of YOLO- You Only Live Once. I’ve never really liked this phrase because it connotates that you might as well do the thing because you won’t get to again. But I want to challenge that. 

I was at a Bible study yesterday morning and the speaker began talking about what you think JESUS will ask you when you finally get to the gates of Heaven… many of us think He will ask us about our service, prayer life, and devotion to Him, but what if He asks about something else? Like come on, God has placed so much good on this earth, what if He wants to talk about that? 

Like, I really enjoy coffee, books, and being outdoors, since JESUS is the man that wants to invest in every. Single. Person. I feel like He would want to know what we enjoy and maybe ask us about it… man, imagine getting to Heaven and Him saying “did you enjoy the coffee? The thousands upon millions of books? The hammocking and hiking?” 

God has given us these things to enjoy. So, back to YOLO… 

If you only live once, don’t you want to make the most of it? Like, enjoying these good things God has given us? 

There’s a song that says “you only live once so you better live it well”. I don’t want to walk through life stressed, defeated, and bored. I want to step out and be adventurous, trusting that my God, my ABBA Father in Heaven, is leading the way day by day. 

That being said, I’m going to enjoy my coffees, books, and outdoors. I’m going to YOLO right on through life, but I’m going to YOLO for Christ. 

So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom. | Psalm 90:12

Be Grateful

// October 9 //

Today I do not have much to say other than to be grateful. Sometimes we get so caught up in the things we have to do and the things that are readily available to us and we take advantage of it.

I eat in a school dining hall everyday, three times a day. Sometimes I complain that there is never anything to eat. What I really mean is that there is never anything I WANT in that moment to eat. We tend to complain about these little things a lot.

What I fail to realize is that I should just be grateful to have a school dining hall where my parent’s helped me pay for the meal plan.

Why?

Because there are some people that don’t even have a snack let alone three meals a day.

Take a moment to just give thanksgiving to God for the things you have readily available to you daily.

1 Thessalonians 5.8 “In every thing give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.”

Be a Winner 

// October 8 // 

Today I feel defeated. 

I have a stack of school work so high it’s taller than me (but I guess that doesn’t say much because I’m so short). I am scheduled to work everyday this week with both of my jobs combined. I feel drained and empty of all my energy. 

I went to bed late and had plans to go to church with two of my favorite friends. I did not want to go and was secretly hoping my friend would sleep through his alarm (he’s known for that). But he didn’t, and I had already committed to driving. 

The service went later than I expected and we got back to campus later than I thought we would. I had about 30 minutes to grab lunch before I had to head off to my next event. I knew that I would be out late (Pssh, is 8:30PM late?). I was dreading the night because I have to work at 7:30 in the morning and have so much school work to do. 

I feel defeated because I have so much to do, but not enough time or energy. Did I bite off more than I can chew? Did I get myself involved in more than I can handle? 

I was reminded, however, in the midst of my chaotic day that God views me much differently. He sees me as a winner. Even though my human self may fail by getting myself caught up in more than I should, He sees me as precious in His eyes. 

He sees you the same. Even though you may feel weighted down and burned out, the Lord still sees you as victorious. 

And how can we say that we are anything BUT victorious when JESUS is the great King that reigns in victory? My prayer tonight is that our Father in Heaven would touch each of us with grace and restore our energies. Also, I pray that He would remind us and still in our hearts that we are winners in His eyes. 

“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.”

‭‭Galatians‬ ‭6:9‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Self Care

// October 7 //

This morning I woke up dreading the day. Another day of working until mid-afternoon and then an evening of school work. This routine gets old to me. I know that I signed up for these things but sometimes I just need to breathe and take a minute to recollect.

After asking God in many prayers to be sent home early from work, the Lord provided and my manager told me to leave and hour early. When she told me I nearly cried I was in such disbelief, it was incredible (God can truly work miracles).

I got back to my dorm room and was planning on cranking out some large assignments that are due this coming week and the next. However, after eating my leftover pizza and pumpkin bread I realized I was so tired that there would be no way I would get ANY work done. So, I did what any other college student would do, I crawled into bed for a mid-afternoon nap.

After laying there for a while, I got bored (I know, I’m crazy). I remembered it was such a beautiful day out as I drove home from work, so I had this spontaneous idea of hammocking. Not able to bare the thought of just laying in a hammock doing nothing, I checked out some of the reading assignments I have to do for this week and grabbed three different books. For some reason, I thought I was going to be super productive on this hammocking adventure.

I got my hammock all set up and finally got comfortable in a position to read and take notes on what I was reading. I read the first assignment and noticed myself drifting in and out of sleep. I thought, maybe I could just close my eyes for a second and be alright to continue working. BUT, I ended up just throwing the rest of my books and notebook to the ground and taking a nap.

When I woke up I could hardly remember where I was. But when I figured it out, I felt so soothed and “recollected”. It was incredible. Then, I packed everything up, went to dinner, got a coffee, and cranked out some school work for the rest of the night. It was great.

You see, one thing I fail to do is practice self-care. I fail to allow my body to rest, as well as my mind and spiritual side. I am a high energy, go-go-go kind of person (just ask my mom and roommate, they’ll tell ya!). But sometimes, I have to take a deep breath and realize that if I want to do even the slightest of a good job, or be helpful, then I need to take care of myself. Hammocking today was definitely a good decision to help me do that.

Do you have ways that you practice good self-care?

A Biblical way of looking at this is the Sabbath Day. We are called to take a whole day where we basically rest in the Lord. We can be reminded of this in Exodus 20.8-10, “Remember to observe the Sabbath day by keeping it holy. You have six days each week for your ordinary work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath day of rest dedicated to the Lord your God.”

 

Enjoy the Good Things 

// October 6 // 

Today was a good day. Despite the fact that I had to work the majority of it. Fortunately, God has blessed me with fun people to work with. After work, however, I was really exhausted and just wanted to sleep. 

I was sitting in my dorm room with my suitemate and we started talking about how weird it is that when I pack everything up at the end of the semester, I’ll never be u packing it at this particular college again. It was very sad to think about, or bittersweet. 

It made me want to have fun this last semester. It made me want to enjoy friendships and just let laughter take over. And that’s exactly what we did tonight. 

My roommate came back from dinner with her parents and brought us yummy cookie sandwiches. I dipped mine in my caramel coffee that I made. It was truly a good thing.  I pondered how pleasant and sweet the moment was, just like the many moments of my college years. 

Simply said, I don’t want to be so stressed out about after college that I forget to enjoy college now. I want to enjoy the good things while they are here. I encourage you to do the same. 

Don’t get so caught up in the future that you let the good times slip away. If you wait too long, the cookie will go stale and you will not get to enjoy it. 

Romans 15.13 says “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”